Böcker av Christine U Cowin

What is life all about? I am sure it's not the path I'd found myself on. Who ordained this life for me? What was my purpose on this earth? All my life, I had been boxed into what those around me perceived me to be. I allowed them to shape me, and I struggled with this. We are all programmed to believe we are what we were conditioned into. As an adult, I took on the role of a wife and mother, not discovering who I am, because I was a member of a family, a wife, a mother: slowly losing myself to a preconceived belief of me. But deep within me, my spirit stirred and said no, this is not you. Seek out the knowledge, and remember who you are.

My Secret Self is an internalised story of my life, and my impressions of the world around me. I kept my views of that world, and of other people, a secret. I felt misunderstood. If I shared my views, I felt I'd be laughed at. I would keep my biggest secret, a secret. I saw magic in nature, and nature could be trusted to support me in my times of trouble.Our family lived only as individuals; we lived in a world of pretence, lies, shame, guilt, and conditionings, under a grief imposed on us. Innocence was lost due to the manipulations of my grandmother, through her fears of being isolated.As I observed these people, I knew my life would be different. I coped by observing others and realising this is not how a family should be.