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Set in New York and suburban Connecticut, the early months of 1970 leave in their wake a string of disquieting memories for single parent Erich Mauer, all of them unpleasant. His younger son is confined to a state-run rehabilitation facility following a nearly fatal OD, Erich loses his globetrotting management job when his company restructures, and he's bedside when his fiancee loses her battle with leukemia. Erich feels that his life is starting over at forty. While offering support to his wayward son, he begins a search for a new job and the woman who will one day take the place of his beloved Tina. Affairs follow, but with two marriages that've failed, Erich is understandably cautious. With his career in disarray, a son in rehab, and Tina gone, he still finds the grit to adjust to his setbacks. The story of his revival and what lies ahead are the focal points of the book that follows: A Matter of Time.

"Bombs away!" Usually, that means a mission is halfway over. For one man, it's just the beginning. The Bombardier is the story of Captain Rosen of the U.S. Army Air Forces. He is shot down over Nazi Germany in 1943, the country he had escaped from six years before. As a Jew, he knows he must not be caught. He makes his effort to escape, and finds treachery at every turn. He must also endure a staggering air raid that brings him to the edge of death. Any mistake can be fatal, but Rosen will do what must be done, and knows that if he fails, he must take a lot of Nazis with him.Join one man's quest to escape to freedom. Follow The Bombardier!

Sometimes it takes going back to finally BREAK FREE.After fleeing the Theosian authorities and acclimating to their new home, teenage aliens Joshua and Mani have at long last carved out lives for themselves on Earth. With a circle of human friends more supportive than they ever imagined, Joshua and Mani discover true friendship is universal. And, for Joshua, so is true love, in the form of an Earthling named Emma.But the Theosian authorities are not so easily thwarted. The decree of no first contact with Earth must be upheld. A spy sent to Earth aims to find, capture, and return Joshua and Mani to Theos for prosecution.To protect Mani, safeguard his human friends, and preserve his idyllic existence with the love of his life, Joshua risks going back in order to finally BREAK FREE.Get your copy today!Joshua: Life After Theos (Book 1 in the series) was a finalist in the 2019 Next Generation Indie Book Competition in the category of Young New Adult (ages 17+).

When Andrea and David Granahan first met, she was 17 and on her way to get a marriage license with her first husband. David and the husband were roommates at an Airforce base where they both played in the Airforce band. He was engaged to his first wife, but fell head over heels for Andrea. Five years later, while he was in graduate school at an Ivy League University and had established himself as a sculptor, the couple began their life together with Andrea's two children, and eventually they had a third. Their life took them from Maine to Maryland to a Greek island, and eventually to California where with two hammers and a hand saw they built their home. Their decades of love and challenges finally ended up with David facing brain cancer. This book is about their love and David's courage as he faces his impending death.

Red the Dog chronicles the adventures of a real-life dog that shortly after being abandoned by his previous owner, soon becomes the neighborhood pet.For over ten years Red has chosen to remain near the spot where he was dropped off, patiently waiting his master's return. In the meantime Red confidently roams the neighborhood biding his time and getting into various sorts of trouble.The book intentionally highlights the plight of so many abandoned pets; they appear suddenly, out of nowhere and quickly vanish again. Often abused and scared they become prey in a totally new and foreign environment without the survival skills to care for themselves.By apparently defying those odds Red has managed to win the hearts of an entire South Texas subdivision.

Insynnium is the name of a mysterious sleeping pill derived from a tiny seed that only three people know how to germinate. For its users, though, Insynnium stimulates vivid dreams with an emotionally uplifting effect that leaves them with the most restorative rest imaginable. For a population hungry for sleep and a little magic inside their slumbering minds, it is the fix everyone is in search of.But Insynnium is also a drug with dimensions that seem to know no bounds; a substance that creates its own vortex and pulls the main characters, Duncan, Max, and Rachel apart as they struggle to reassemble what their lives once were and have since become in this dark comedy about the power of secrets and the mutable nature of identity.Through a twisted chain of events, fate leads Duncan Wisegerber to the heart of Insynnium; a beating core that holds a deep secret guarded by a curse. By outward appearances, Duncan is a magnetic and charismatic drifter who connects easily with others, but inside lurks something dark and mercurial that only he can answer for.When Max McVista, during a low period in his life, reconnects with old college friend, Duncan Wisegerber, his life takes an unexpected turn. While recovering from alcoholism, Max is tempted to try Insynnium, and falls into an unexplainable coma where he becomes convinced that he has time travelled back in his life for a year. His existence soon becomes a succession of comas and time travel and learning experiences that reach beyond anything he could ever have imagined.When the beautiful and enchanting, Rachel Redcalf, finds her husband, Max McVista, back on her doorstep after missing for more than a year, she is astonished by his subtle yet incredible transformation. Her love for Max is rekindled, and she begins aligning her psychic abilities with her husband's puzzling new skills and talents to avert a significant number of accidents and tragedies in and around the city where they live.A novel that explores the unknown landscapes that exist between people, and how the combination of memories, dreams, and music can lead to unexpected truths; nothing is as it seems in this journey to the center of Insynnium.From the majestic Canadian prairies and the towering California redwoods to the deserts of Israel and the beaches of Cuba, this shifting third person narrative reveals a tale of three friends connected by love and divided by fear as they piece together their past and present and contemplate their futures under the pervasive tunes of Insynnium.

Rai, Second's petite yet powerful guitarist, epitomizes the persona of a rock star and thoroughly enjoys the lifestyle it affords. A brutally talented musician with a humanitarian heart, she spends her life proving her worth to the world, onstage and off. Sidling the tough work and keeping her relations casual, she prefers the tempting over the tedious. Tough yet sultry, the charismatic musician earns her place in Second with exotic Asian beauty and the natural ability to sway even the most guarded producers and venue owners.But when she tangles with an older, successful television writer and fellow art fan, she doubts all the tough lessons she's learned in life. The years of routine are threatened by his golden good looks and sharp mind. And his heart hides a desperate secret, one that keeps his soul in chains. Desperate for proof, hungry for affection, she pushes her perceptions, gambles with her heart, and puts her faith in his hands.Can she dig deep, learn to love the man and the life he offers, and still find the proof she so desperately needs from him?

LOSING TIME, a memoir, offers a frank account of gay life as I lived it in Sacramento, CA during the AIDS crisis--the Losing Time of the title. It focuses on the later life and too early death from AIDS of one man among the many remembered here--Dore Tanner (1949-98)--who taught me in that dark era that love was more than the heterosexual illusion I had always believed it to be. LOSING TIME offers an honest, sometimes humorous, depiction of two gay men who blundered into a love neither of us was looking for, and subsequently, the fat grief felt on so soon losing a lover so lately found and the determination it took to find my way again when my compass pointed only south. This memoir's interweaving of the account of a particular loss with the stories of so many others who lost time entirely in the AIDS era presents the texture of life as many gay men lived it during the Losing Time, which began nearly 40 years ago. The book's focus on personal experience particularizes an AIDS history fast becoming generalized, its human details being lost to memory.

This remarkable woman, Ida May Morris was an imaginative raconteur, telling tall tales to entertain her family and friends. Her own story takes the reader through history as Ida experiences discrimination, brutal riots, class struggles, sexual abuse and the suffrage movements. When her husband William is killed at the Battle of the Somme, she takes her two children and extended family to Australia for a better life. Moving to the raw outback was not a simple solution.

Inspired by real-life events, this is a gritty and dark crime thriller, telling of a warrior's journey. The traveler on this journey is an of a one-of-a-kind disconcerting individual, a transgender, and biracial woman, who is isolated, lonely, and emotionally troubled, a stranger in her own body.Her crimes of violence are at first, life-preserving, and later become opportunistic as she fights the obstacles that fuel her fear of returning to childhood misery. Our warrior begins her journey in a notorious prison in the Philippines where she is locked up for murder at a young age, with the belief that she will not survive. She is noticed by the prison's warden and selected to fight in the Muay Thai underground prison circuit, where prison and government officials conduct rigged fights for betting purposes.When a promised journey outside of the Philippines allows her to leave the prison with her warden, she escapes to Bangkok, transitions sexes, and lives, and works in the district infamous for the tourist sex trade. Seeking to find her father, an ex-serviceman, she comes to the United States to begin her search. Here through misrepresentation, and overcoming countless obstacles, she becomes a police officer, and her new identity leaves her living her life in turmoil, struggling to find where she belongs in a field ruled by toxic masculinity, corruption, and cruelty. She attempts to exact justice for victimized children who have been cast aside by the system.

Have you ever felt as if something were missing from your life? Do you long for a clearer sense of purpose? If those questions are on your mind, know that there are real answers. You have a unique existence in the universe. There is no other like you. God knows very well who you are and tracks every hair on your head. Because you are unique, you are the only one who can worship God the way you do. God seeks your worship and you are most blessed when it is at its deepest, most intimate level. Worship was never meant be limited to once-a-week in a church building nor should it be considered to be the same as daily devotions. Private worship (worshiping God without the presence of other humans) can be a pathway to to a deeper, more fulfilling relationship with God.That depth and intimacy can be achieved through private, personal time with God. Worshiping in a body is important, but worship involving just you and God is far more important. Worshiping Alone is a handbook designed to introduce you to the pleasure and practice of expressing your individuality to God through personal worship in truth and in spirit. With the Holy Spirit as your guide, and Christ as your mentor you are encouraged to develop your particular style of regular, private worship.Advice on how, when and where to worship alone is included as well as examples of personal daily worship plans. Additionally, there are numerous examples of items (both traditional and non-traditional) that can be included in your personal worship plans.Following the guidance of the Holy Spirit will place you squarely on the path to sanctification and lead you to become more and more Christ-like. As you travel along that path, you are encouraged to notice and celebrate the changes within you.The first of the Ten Commandments says there is to be nothing more important in our lives than God. Jesus tells us to "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." Worshiping Alone provides a strategy for putting God first and expressing our love for Him on a regular basis.

The book presents a revolutionary approach to higher education based on empathy, trust and collaboration. It describes how people can be brought together across cultural, racial, ethnic, gender, sexuality, class, ability and other divides in a spirit of love and liberation. The setting for the book is "The Bible as Literature" course taught at the University of South Florida by Dr. Gary L. Lemons. The teaching,learning and writing experiences and methods described here can be deployed not just in academia but in business, politics, community activism and beyond.

Have you ever felt like where you come from determines the outcome of your life? What if you could learn to let go of the past and leave a new legacy?Abandoned with several kids in the backwoods of Missouri, my grandma's faith changed the course of our family's future. Ripples is the story of a family plagued by generational sins of violence and addictions.But this isn't just our story. This is a redemption story for everyone who longs to know their lives aren't too messy for Jesus! That you are fully known and fully loved regardless of your past.It's an opportunity to discover that where we come from doesn't have to determine where we go. God is in the business of restoration and He wants it for you as well.In Ripples, father and daughter team, Bill and Laura, take you on a journey through true stories of heartache but also of great victory! In their down home way they share the hope weaved through their own story, in hopes it will help transform yours!Come along as we discover how God's redeeming power leads to freedom and forgiveness along the way.

Gadara: The Story of the Gadarene Demoniac is a work of fiction based on the true biblical account. Jesus cast a multitude of demons from a man into a vast herd of swine. The story attempts to bring this to life, as well as many other events.The demonic 'Legion' is a hideous beast until totally transformed by Jesus. The local people saw what had happened and demanded that Jesus depart out of fear. The swine had run into the Sea of Galilee and drowned. 'Jason' is the original name of the former demoniac and wants to go with Jesus, but he forbids him and tells him to go and tell what good things God had done for him. It is a mission that Jason takes very seriously, for he becomes a man of incredible faith.And so, the fictional account of Jason, the former Gadarene demoniac begins early in the book. My story interacts with the Bible, but in no way re-interprets it. Jason discovers that he has the authority to heal the sick and cast out demons in the name of Jesus; no different than the disciples of Jesus before and after the crucifixion. He affects the lives of many and soon has a reputation; both good and bad. Many had not forgotten his previous life. Jesus returned to the Decapolis months later and was well received. This 'Jason' must have done something to change the hearts and minds of the people deeply entrenched in their cultural beliefs and traditions.Although Jason is delivered and restored in every way, his body remains covered with scars from years of cutting himself with stones. His challenges are relentless. Despite this, he makes friends and meets the love of his life, which doesn't begin well. The story is a roller coaster ride with some good teaching along the way. I wrote the book to be enjoyed. It is an epic novel with action, adventure, romance, and emotion with a touch of humor. The story offers a slightly different point of view: Pagan Greeks confronted with the word of God by one of their own; a strong, fearless, lovable, scarred former demoniac with a mission...and a past.There are many scriptures from the King James Bible used in the book, where appropriate, and all are referenced. All of the words of Jesus are his actual words. The beliefs in the book are basic biblical concepts, as well as the apocryphal book of Enoch to describe the origin of the demons. This was a widely accepted concept in the first century, but it may make the book a bit controversial. I hope so. The demonic activity depicted in the book is also a result of years of interest in the subject of real demonic possession. It was intended to be realistic.This story was also written through compassion for the lost. Jesus came to seek and save that which was lost. It's not flesh and blood we fight against, but spiritual wickedness in high places, which is what this work is really about. Therefore, this book is dedicated to Jesus, and to the lost.

While almost everywhere else is experiencing an increase in criminal activity, this Southern city is witnessing exactly the opposite. The crime rate is going down but not all crimes. People with a variety of illnesses are experiencing unexpected improvements to their health. There are even unusual changes to the behavior of some of the animals at the local zoo. All these things are occurring in just this one city.There is no one who can account for the strange goings-on. Those few who are even aware that something is in the works have no idea why it is happening. They have been unable to come up with an explanation that makes sense.A freelance writer, Ardan Healy, being naturally curious, finds himself drawn to the search for explanations. The more he learns the stranger it all seems. How can these things be related to one another? After false starts and dead end trails, Ardan intensifies his efforts but questions whether he will ever find the answers he seeks.Ardan's search for the solution to this puzzle leads him straight into conflict with other parts of his life. Will he stumble on missing pieces of his past while he is looking for parts of the other puzzle? Can he solve both puzzles at the same time?He discovers more than he ever imagined and is pulled deeper and deeper into the mystery. He recruits others to help with the quest for reason in what is going on and finds himself trusting some troubled persons to help him.Ardan uncovers other hard to believe changes taking place in his adopted hometown and they are not all bad, though they are unusual. Is there an unrecognized crime at the root of all these occurrences? What will he do if he finds that someone is responsible for all this and it is not an act of nature? And if there is someone, who could it possibly be?

Losing a loved one leaves a void not just in your life, but in your ability to process life. Grief is a multi-faceted emotion. It unfolds almost minute by minute, revealing loneliness, despair, anger, and a host of other emotions. Learning to process these emotions, despite the pain can be therapeutic.If you're drowning in grief, having difficulty processing your emotions, or just feel like you won't make it through, this book is for you. Grief is tough and it's ongoing, you now must deal with a new normal of living without your loved one. While reading this book you will reminisce, recall, remember, and reflect on the life and love you shared with your loved one. Some days you will laugh, some days you will cry, but you will never forget the love you shared.

Pianist Garreth Llewelyn has a hair-trigger imagination. It helps him lead his audiences into amazing realms. His mesmerizing improvisations engage listeners' senses in incredible ways.Garreth is the best-known pianist in the world, but he's struggling to balance his music with his complicated personal life. His romantic relationships are becoming difficult. His authoritarian father and his envious brother are making it hard to have close family ties.A noted writer, following Garreth from concert to concert, is preparing the definitive biography. But his questions stir up things Garreth hasn't wanted to face. Is his music some form of escape? Is he hypnotizing his listeners?Garreth has other questions for himself: Why is he haunted by a menacing image from his childhood? Why do ancient stone cairns inhabit his thoughts? What is his music, with its increasing synesthesia, trying to tell him?And, most important: what can he do to achieve more with his life?The Improviser takes you around the world from Machu Picchu to northern Manitoba, from Istanbul to Wales, from the Sistine Chapel to the White House. And it takes you into the imagination of a musical genius, into a captivating place where illusion and reality intertwine.

An intriguing speaker uses anecdotes and illustrations to help the audience grasp the points being made. This book contains 160 such stories collected by Steve Boyd, popular after-dinner speaker, trainer, university professor, and pulpit minister. (The latter assures you can tell these stories to your grandmother or your children!)From presidential anecdotes to stories of Greek orators to personal experiences in learning to dance, these are stories you can use tomorrow to make your speech have impact.

Way of Escape is a true life-long story that starts with the rape of a four-year-old girl. The very people she should have been able to trust and run to for help, betrayed her and introduced her to a realm of repeated sexual violation and other forms of ritual abuse. The incidents of her early life defined her self-concept and dictated her life course.It portrays some of the abusive and ritualistic events in her life; some are described quite graphically; all are demonically inspired and represent the potential for evil in the hearts and minds of mankind.The book's purpose is not to place blame on any group or individual, but to give credibility to survivors of abuse, and through the life of this little girl, offer reassurance that God is real. He is faithful and will always provide a way of escape - even when it is physically impossible to break free. God lovingly separates our consciousness and physical perceptions from the inescapable abuse. He allows us to "leave" while still being physically held captive - to dissociate ourselves from the painful situation.In the realm of psychiatry, dissociation is labeled as a "disorder" - Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly Multiple Personality Disorder). When there is no power or means to physically flee from a situation, how can being able to mentally and emotionally "leave" and preserve one's self be called a disorder? In an inescapable abusive situation, fear and physical pain are the most horrific aspects of the victimization. How then, can it not be a blessing of God to escape to a place of psychological refuge where there is no pain, no fear? If someone being assaulted were able to run away to safety, would they not be considered resourceful, heroic, and extremely fortunate? Why then is this inward escape viewed with skepticism, or condemnation? The victim desperately strives to neutralize the terror and prevent the physical and emotional pain. Any method by which this is achieved must be applauded as inventive, and courageous.In cases of childhood sexual, satanic, or repetitive trauma, dissociation is an effective method of survival. Just as the abusive events are sequestered away from the conscious memory, non-traumatic segments of one's life are also hidden away - inaccessible. There may be limited memory of milestone events: early childhood, school years, significant relationships, weddings, childbirth, professional experiences, emotional losses, or joyous events. Looking back on life seems like the replay of a video from which segments have been removed and the remaining scenes re-attached in non-sequential, random order. There are parts of the plot that don't make sense because there is nothing connecting them to the original story. God promises to give back the lost scenes, the experiences that were stolen from us for the gratification of others. He splices back together the soul that was fragmented so events can be remembered and reprocessed in their entirety, without re-experiencing the emotional and physical trauma.Above all, Way of Escape is a story of redemption. From the sexual betrayal, disillusionment and ritualistic abuse of a small child, through her fragmented, emotionally volatile youth and early adulthood, God is faithful to bring about reclamation of innocence once lost, and restoration of a shattered soul. The journey is laborious and emotionally challenging, but through the counselor's skilled and compassionate dedication, God's unconditional love and wisdom, and the willingness of the broken human spirit to be healed, the chains of bondage are broken and wholeness is restored.The author's hope is that the shame, guilt and destructive life path that often result from emotional trauma be resolved and replaced with a positive self-concept, absence of self-persecution, and a future of hope and freedom f

Retired naval officer Frank Warren, now an airline pilot, is on the final day of a routine, four-day trip. On board is William "Will Call" Stimson, U.S. Navy (ret) who now works on Capitol Hill. Will Call and Warren, fellow commanding officers while on active duty developed a strong friendship during their command tours and remained close when each retired. Will Call Stimson knows of an opening in the secretary of defense organization and thinks he knows who the perfect candidate for the job is.Will Call waits for the passengers to deplane in Atlanta and then surprises Warren with a warm handshake and a hug. They talk in the concourse where Will Call describes the position which Frank considers enticing. After a discussion with wife Mary, they decide to pursue this new opportunity and relocate to the Washington, D.C. area.In the Pentagon, Frank learns administrative protocols from Denise Emerson, an attractive assistant who seems to live far beyond her means. Also working there are two individuals whom Frank met while on active duty as a student at the National Defense University (NDU). Rear Admiral Joseph Donaldson, "Joe 2-star" in Frank's mind, was a commander and an early selectee for captain at NDU. An outstanding and highly regarded naval officer, Radm. Donaldson's meteoric rise through the ranks resulted in his Pentagon assignment as the Navy's director of air warfare. Also assigned to the Pentagon was Sharon Fleming who serves as the Assistant Secretary of Defense for International Security Affairs. She, like Frank Warren and Joseph Donaldson, was a student at NDU and was a war game team member of Warren's during their academic year.Warren, Donaldson, and Fleming are again brought together by unusual Iranian naval activity in the Persian Gulf. In the Situation Room of the White House all three individuals contribute to the formulation of a response by U.S. military forces to acts of aggression demonstrated by Iranians. The original plan briefed to the president doesn't seem right to war planning novice Frank Warren. Warren challenges CentCom's plan and proposes an alternate strategy. Surprisingly, the president invokes Warren's proposal and orders it implemented.In the Persian Gulf, the USS Nimitz (CVN-68) anchors due to issues with her nuclear-powered propulsion system. USS Bunker Hill (CG-52) and USS Milius (DDG-69) perform guard duty while Nimitz strives to get their reactors back online. As Sunday morning dawns, a B-52 Stratofortress screams over the heads of Iranian and American sailors and a second flyover ends with an explosive display of firepower. Iran's small boats and two submarines return to Bandar Abbas and the conflict in the Persian Gulf is resolved without further incident.Each side views the event through their own lens and each draws erroneous conclusions. Frank Warren's uneasiness with the lifestyle and disposition of Denise Emerson is well founded but uncorroborated. Denise surreptitiously provides Tehran authorities with intelligence information she can obtain during her normal work routine, motivated by the death of her parents who died when their Iranian airliner was shot down by a United States warship in July 1988.Von Clausewitz's "fog of war" theory proves itself again as the United States and Iran continue their delicate balancing act with potentially deadly consequences.

Surviving the mean streets of New Orleans in 1956, young Tim Kelly begins a young Indiana Jones style adventure by lying about his age to join the Coast Guard at the tender age of fourteen.His adventure takes him to Vietnam where he is awarded the Silver Star medal which is overshadowed by his less than honorable discharge for releasing his rage in an Air Force officer's club taking revenge for Air Force 'friendly fire' that killed three of his friends.Returning home, he is faced with the dilemma of betrayal of an old friend who - although he is a ruthless drug cartel boss - has saved his life on more than one occasion - his decision leads him to the shadow world of drug and human trafficking - and after his cover is blown - he survives torture to be rescued just in the nick of time.After his rescue, everything seems to be going well - Tim and his soul mate Brenda are scheduled to marry - but before that happens Brenda and her best friend the spirited young daughter of the Governor of Texas are kidnapped by the cartel and spirited away to a secret island base off the coast of Yucatan - will Tim be able to save them in time?A Bio-terrorist Dr. Heinrich Fleischer enters the picture to develop a deadly strain of respiratory Anthrax the ruthless Campeche drug cartel intends to use against the other Latin American cartels to gain control of the cocaine and heroin trafficking in the U.S. and Canada.Fleischer, acquires a tactical nuclear device which he plants in a major U.S. port - using the threat to blackmail the President of the U.S. - detonation of the device in a major American port would devastate the world's economy for decades.

Saints In The Field Genuine Remnants is a powerful, cogent, bold and eloquent collection of poetic messages from the Lord written in italics to His saints regarding love, death, addiction, special needs, bondage, encouragement, fear, healing, joy, mothers and protection. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE for God to handle. He continues to thoroughly purge away our dross by purifying us from all unrighteousness. When saints abide in His love and obey His word our lives reflect His ineluctable light to the world.Included is poetry inspired by the author's life, people in her life and situations that she has not experienced regarding our human condition and struggles with principalities and powers. The Lord provided extreme empathy in her heart in order to write about these inner, deep and hidden circumstances (Jeremiah 33:3). He has disarmed the principalities and powers and made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them in the cross (Colossians 2:15).

Detectives John Bowers and his partner Minola Raye catch a case that has them on the hunt for a serial rapist who has left two victims in the heart of the city, in the shade of the white-collar towers. Portland, the City of Roses, prides itself on a downtown which welcomes and succors the unfortunate, where every other corner has a Starbucks and the professionals hurry from cobbled streets to catch the trolley to green burbs. This is one new case that has the City fathers determined to put a suspect on the evening news sooner rather than later.John Bowers gets sidelined by a kid who almost puts the Detective in the morgue. While John's on the mend in ICU, his partner and the whole Central Precinct Homicide team is trying to find the main suspect who has disappeared. There's barely a trail to follow, but intuition and plain-dog police work close in just in time to promise the return of safe streets downtown.With John down a deep rabbit hole from the opiates they're shooting into him the hospital, he becomes another crime victim, but this time nobody's on the hunt for the perpetrator. This is one violation that won't end with City Serenade.

This book is based on my true life story and how the past plays a role in characteristics that we exhibit. Especially when I found out that I was born out of Rape. My parents had instilled in me the importance of putting God first in my life. I discovered on this journey the depth of some of those personality characteristics and how they played a role in shaping my future. I also discovered why I repeat over and over many of the same mistakes.My hope for the reader is that they will recognize some of the tendencies that many of us exhibit and then seek to understand them with the help of God. I was lead to a ministry called Wellsprings. This ministry opened my eyes to the reasons I had such competitive tendencies. It was born of an innate desire to fit in and be at the top of my game so that nobody would look down on me or my children. I was driven by fear of not feeling good enough. When I enrolled at Wellsprings, they helped me understand the power of generational curses and strongholds and how we can be born into them. Knowledge is power and the truth will set you free!As my story unfolded, I discovered through a series of events that my parents were not 15 like we had been told. My mother was 28, married with 5 other children. I knew I was adopted at a young age. Several cousins on my dad's side would remind Keith (my brother) and I that we were not "real family". Now don't get me wrong, I had a wonderful adoption story from Bethany Home. I was a baby and couldn't have picked better parents if I had picked them myself. The truth is that my quest to find the key to my story includes many different twists and turns, some were devastating but others were pure joy. In the end, I realized that God's timing is perfect. He truly he is the author of my story ….. nobody could just make this stuff up! One of the things that will help promote this book is completing my "story" by finding my birth father. But I also realize that God is my father! The founder of Sav the 1, prolife attorney/speaker Rebecca Kiessling, has a T-shirt that says: "I took a DNA TEST GOD is my FATHER!"First finding out I was born of rape, to having 5 siblings! Holy cow - what a ride! I am blessed that my beautiful mother, Johanna was here by my side everyday of this crazy introduction into my family! My intended reader is anyone who has faced feelings of not being good enough, rejection and abandonment. Also anyone who had been adopted and wondered more about your story. My hope is that anyone who has faced feelings of not being good enough needs to know that we all have a Father in heaven that says we are! And to those of you that are adopted and think that you have been "given away" or tossed to the side like yesterday's trash - realize that God is the author of every story and he may be saving you from something that could be much worse! Your story is truly authored by God. Please know that we are all CHILDREN OF THE KING and that he knew us BEFORE we were born! And we are most certainly are Always Good Enough! So come to the table that God has prepared and tell your story - we are ALL welcomed there! And always remember like Toby Mac said: "Don't be afraid to tell your story because it might be the key that unlocks somebody else's prison." Join me on this journey where God's revelation changed my life forever and ultimately helped me realize that we are "ALWAYS GOOD ENOUGH".