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Deconstruction is defined as a method of critical analysis of philosophical language, emphasizing the internal workings of language and conceptual systems, the quality of its meaning, and the assumptions made in forms of its expression. I grew up entrenched in evangelical Christianity, and there is A LOT to deconstruct.
In general, the intent of deconstruction is not to necessarily disprove or demolish it from existence. Rather, it is a method of peeling back the layers, both past and present, in an attempt to understand it. However, when you take something like Christianity, you pull back a lot of layers that were conveniently glossed over when you were younger, leaving you with a minefield of rabbit holes to jump down and explore.
Oftentimes, as has happened to so many others before me, that means you emerge with a completely different view of religion that destroys the world you had seen as a child. It almost means starting over and re-evaluating your entire life, depending on how deeply involved in it you were to begin with.
I recently underwent that journey, and I'm sharing it with you now in hopes that it helps you in some way.